Back to okay

What a freaking roller coaster ride this is. Today was better and for that I am thankful. Bedtime still stinks. It's just so hard the way that we do things to take care of both of them. Leah CAN put herself to sleep, but has come to enjoy our bedtime as much as Todd and I have, I think. She really fades off to sleep quickly when we lie there with her. I have to say, it is AWESOME! I had forgotten how much since Todd is usually the one to do it. Soon enough they will be old enough to do it themselves together, and while I'm happy for THEM that way (I soooo remember my sister and I going to sleep at night in the same room...WONDERFUL memories), I'm sad to think that it's just another way they are growing up too fast for me.

So, Leah just can't be patient while Kara is falling asleep (without a nap, Kara needs sleep by 7:30 ish) and while Kara was nursing to sleep this was fine (she is like me and can do sleep ANYWHERE!)....while she's trying to learn this new go to sleep without the boob thing, she is easily distracted to say the least. Leah is quite mature for her age, but no amount of explaining is helping this. She's just a figety (did I spell that right?) kid by nature (thanks daddy!).

However, they were both sleeping by 9 (seems to be the norm), so I had some alone time which was nice. The day was so blah here. I can't remember a spring so cold and rainy. I'm sure that contributes to the mood here. If only we had a few sunny warm days to lift our spirits!

WE spent our day inside but doing some fun stuff (well the girls played and put on a puppet show for me and danced, I CLEANED). We played some games and that was cool. I really do enjoy spending time with them...they are neat little people.

Talking with Todd today was super cool. He had me on google maps talking me through where his building is. An old picture, as things have changed around where he is, but there was his building and it made me feel a cool kind of connection to him, which was nice. I feel better about WHERE he is after hearing about the security perimeters and such. His building is doubly secured, if that matters. Didn't thrill me to hear that they had an "incoming" siren while they were eating today (chow is actually in an adjacent building). Makes things so much more real to hear that.

It's nice, too, that he calls me sometimes before I go to bed. At 11:30 or so here, he is getting up to start his day, and just hearing his voice for 3 minutes makes a big difference. Helps me feel better about sleeping (which I'm not able to do much of lately, as is evidenced by the fact that I'm typing this at almost 1 am).

Alright. I actually AM tired and Leah has school tomorrow, so NO sleeping in (like they would anyway!).