Workout update

Treadmill Day #8:
25 minutes
239 calories
1.79 miles
1.2 miles jogging 10.75 min/mi pace!!
.65, recover, .30, recover, .25, recover

Same as last time. I'm not discouraged, though, because I have a minor sinus thing going on and a lot of stuff dripping down my throat which made it difficult to breath well.

Will try to improve next time to .75 miles first stretch.

Will be at my sisters for a couple of days, so no treadmill until at least Thurs.....so we'll see!!!

Workout update

Treadmill Day #7:
25 minutes
230 calories
1.80 miles
1.2 miles jogging 10.75 min/mi pace!!
.65, recover, .30, recover, .25, recover

MUSIC is a great motivator. Wore headphones and had music egging me on!!! Hoping that maybe the time after next to get a mile at once!!

The news is evil

Well, now I know why we don't really watch the news at our house. You see, my parents are OBSESSED with the news. They will watch ABC on the weekends, where they simply repeat the same news over and over for 4 hours. Holy moly. To hear the newscasters report it, judgement day is near.

Seriously. If I hear the story about the man who drown in the Ohio Pyle river, or the boy scouts who died in a tornado, or anything more about the flooding in Iowa, or how the price of a gallon of gas is going to be $5 by Labor Day, or the amount of money it will be costing to simply check a piece of luggage when you fly, I'm gonna pull my ears off. Is it all news worthy? Sure. People love to hear about tragedy (why is beyond me), but good heaven's. The end of the world is NOT coming people.

It IS a good thing, because hopefully people will start to realize that when it comes to a lot of this stuff, there are many things that individuals can do to help.....in the form of greener lives and better ways for the earth. However, people in general are selfish and uncaring, so not much is going to change, I'm sure....at least in this rural backwards place. I mean, seriously, most people here won't even consider recycling (because they actually have to take the stuff to a recycling center themselves)...it makes me crazy!

Off on a tanget I go. Bottom line is this. I don't like to watch the news. I know that these things go on. I read about the important stuff online. I don't care to watch them over 18 times and feel depressed that I brought children into such a shitty world.

I'm done. I think :)

On a happy note....the girls had a blast swimming at Larry and Jodi's tonight. They were both jumping in off the diving board with their swimming vests on and not thinking much of it. It's wonderful to see them not afraid, though I will be teaching them respect for the water, of course. Everyone went to bed in a good way and without any major tantrums, so I'll take it.

GOOD NIGHT.

Workout update

Treadmill Day #6:
25 minutes
223 calories
1.71 miles
1 mile jogging 10.5 min/mi pace!! (with a .1 mile sprint at the end!!)
.35, recover, .25, recover, .2, recover, .1, quickrecover, .1sprint

Just wasn't feeling it today. I think i need to keep my slower pace until I can do a mile at once, then increase a bit at a time until i'm doing a decent timed mile.

Another setback for Mom?

Being with my family is nice in so many ways, but there are still those days that this just sucks beyond belief! Yesterday was one of those for me. I actually ended up SICK. I have no doubt that it was stress and lack of sleep. Since arriving at my parents house, I haven't been able to go to sleep before 2 am. Now, thankfully, a few mornings, I slept in until 8, but still....6 hours doesn't work for me at all.

I still don't feel like I can totally relax and let go. I feel like my parents have this attitude that I just have to tough it out, and the kids are totally my responsibility. I'm not sure how I feel about that. On one hand, it's right. I mean, they ARE my responsibility. On the other hand, if I can't count on them to help me catch a few minutes of a break, then who can I count on? I mean, really....would it hurt for them to offer to watch the kids while I go do some shopping or something? I ran to the convenient store a mile away today, and it was the first 10 minutes that I was ALONE since my husband left (without a responsibility besides myself). No wonder my body shut down yesterday.

Emotionally, I had a rough one, too. I keep thinking about father's day and how he won't be here. It really sucks. I know that it will be fine and we will get through it, but I hate it. I hate it for my girls. I hate it for me and for him. But, he volunteered....and there are still days that I'm really angry at him for that. Esp. when we're swimming, and i have two girls in vests in the water who both want to take them off to "learn how to really swim" and I can't do it alone. They aren't patient enough to take turns because they are too excited. So, I'll have to come up with some kind of plan for this one.

It's also very hard being home emotionally. I don't like being in this place....where I grew up. My life is so far gone from this place now. I don't like the feelings that I have here....that I'm out of place. I don't fit in here. I don't belong here, and it's uncomfortable. Without sounding like too much of a snob, I'm beyond this place and most of these people. There isn't much of an open mind in small town, rural Pennsylvania, and I can't really deal much with that. I don't have a tolerance for closed minds....strong opinions, yes, but not closed minds. I keep having funky dreams about people in high school and all kinds of weird shit. I don't like it one bit.....there is a reason why I've left all of that behind me. I love my life the way it is......and sadly (because I DO miss my family), that is a life that is NOT here.

Well, I'm all over the place tonight. I need to get some Disney planning done. I'm glad to hear from Todd that he's looking forward to our trip when he returns. I think it will be a great help to all of us reconnecting.....at least I HOPE it will!!!

Tourguidemike, here I come.

workout update

skipped yesterday, went swimming with the girls.

Treadmill Day #5:
25 minutes
234 calories
1.75 miles
1.1 mile jogging 11 min/mi pace!! (with a .1 mile sprint at the end!!)
.75, recover, .2, recover, .1, .1 sprint, recover

I'm still miserably bored on the treadmill, though. Need to get some tunes going.

Hoping for a phone call

Communications have been down for Todd the last couple of days. The last time we spoke with him was yesterday afternoon. He didn't call last night (when he was getting up for the day), or this afternoon (when he would have been getting ready for bed). I didn't realize how much I looked forward to hearing from him those two times a day. It's only a few minutes, but it feels so good to stay connected. I can't even IMAGINE what it must be like to not hear from husbands for a couple of weeks! I tell you that the soldier's wives are my heroes (oh crap, is that an oes or an os?...I'm not very good at this spelling thing!).

The girls seem to be doing a little better today, and thus, me as well. It's stressful for me not knowing what to do to help them. I hate being bitchy and grumpy with them, too. I'm trying to do more FUN things with them, just hanging out and stuff. Leah and I had a great talk tonight before she fell asleep. It was just nice. I felt very close to her, and that is a good thing.

It's getting super hot here now. The air conditioners are in and we're ready for the 90 degree weather. We were going to visit the Pittsburgh zoo this weekend, but might skip it until there is a cooler day. 90 doesn't sound like much fun to me.

We'll probably set up the big blow up pool that we bought. the girls will have a blast. Maybe we'll head out to Larry and Jodi's pool, too. The girls have been having a ball doing all kinds of "country" things. They've been swinging outside, finding bugs, and rolling down the hill in my mom's yard. It's just the best! Very relaxing for all of us that way.

Now, wish me luck that in another 1.5 hours, my cell phone rings, and it's Todd saying hello :)